Having faith
In March when I sent the last $500 of my savings off to a collection agency so that RoadRunner could be turned on in the new apartment, I worried about money for a bit. Then I decided that was foolish.
Since re-establishing my spirituality early in recovery, I’ve learned The Universe provides what I need when I need it. What I need is not to be confused with what I want or what I expect. So I put my faith in The Universe that it would provide.
Being broke since before moving has saved me from several foolish, impulsive purchases. I’m grateful The Universe has protected me from myself, and its helped me maintain my humility.
Yes, I have a totally cool apartment in very trendy part of the city and I’m very happy, nay, delighted, with my decision and with how things have turned-out so far. I’ve also been wanting to brag. Pride and ego rear their ugly heads.
Being poor has helped me maintain the perspective that it’s only important that I’m happy. It doesn’t matter what other people think and it’s poor form to try to impress them.
The Universe provides what I need when I need it.
Since moving, I’ve been courting two new web design clients, each of whom represent two web sites. I’ve maintained my faith that since I will need the money, that one or both of these deals would close when The Universe decided I was ready.
Yesterday I closed the deal with the first prospect for their first web site. It’s a seasonal gig and coming into summer, they’ve had needs that weren’t being met. The deal we closed yesterday sells the preliminary work I’ve done.
I know, I know, never work on spec. But this was faith rather than speculation. It felt different. I never felt like I was gambling, hoping the hours I put in would not be for naught. Rather, I felt like I was already under contract and working on the first phase of the deliverables.
The deal we closed yesterday authorizes me to invoice for the work done to date, and gives me until the next board meeting on Thursday the 10th to complete the work we agree should be done before summer. On acceptance at that meeting, I can invoice for the rest of the work.
We agreed that in the autumn we would revisit the remaining issues with their site, work in what we learned this year, and redevelop for next year’s site.
And, oh, by the way, “Let’s talk sometime about our other site.”
So, this isn’t bragging, I’m reporting to those who have expressed concern, and I wanted to express my gratitude to The Universe.
