Journal

Writing doesn’t feel the same when I know it won’t be posted or read by anyone for a few days. I’ve enjoyed the immediacy. Write, post, answer e-mail, reflect, live, write … True it’s not as immediate as chat, but I don’t think that well on my feet.

Thanks to all who have written wondering where the site has gone. It’s a simple matter really. When the hosting fees were due, I was short. Then when I had the money, I’d lost my ATM card. Got a new ATM card, and guess what? I’m short again. It’s not a fortune, $24.95 per month payable quarterly, but it’s more than what’s in the checking account now.

It’s "No tickee, no washee" in the world of e-commerce, so Hiway/Verio pulled the plug. I can’t blame them considering I’ve had 30 days grace period. Providing I don’t lose the new ATM card between now and the end of the week, the site should be back up on payday, Friday -- Saturday at the latest.

I’m calendar impaired when it comes to future engagements. Last week it seemed like the 23^rd was two weeks away, so I didn’t worry paying the site fees. I could have sent a check in the mail rather than wait for a new ATM card. You know, it seems like I always lose that card when it’s time to pay the hosting fees. I wonder what that means?

I’m also money impaired when it comes to future expenditures. I seem to budget the same funds for two or three expenses. Naturally when it comes time to write the checks, I’m sitting there wondering where all the money went.

Well I paid the hosting fees for this month and the next two this morning, and they told me the site would be back up by close of business today. Then I spent $88 at lunch today on a weekly bus pass, two cartons of cigs, and the first two white hots of the season. Oh yeah, I was behind on my coffee club dues and it’s my turn to buy for the bagel club next week, so I set aside the money for that too.